Freewebs http://autismisaword.webs.com/index.htm These last few weeks have been a mess. Figuratively speaking, I'm a bloody mess.

I've received everyone's e-mails, though I haven't had time to respond. I appreciate all of them. The thoughts of comfort and support do mean something to me when I'm being yelled at by people, juggling more phone calls, paperwork, e-mails and demands than is humanely possible to manage, and also trying to help my 9yo's 4th grade year that is impossibly demanding and resembles something like a pressure cooker for children.

In all of this .... I've lost about 15 pounds, have lost my appetite also, and have started waking up in the middle of the night for "no reason." I call it the "Stress Diet." Seems to work pretty well for anyone who has been trying to lose weight but has been unable to. I'm wearing jeans I swore I'd never fit into again.

Anyway ..... I've sort of taken an unofficial "leave of absence" from some special needs stuff. I'm still maintaining a website and e-mail, I guess .... just not going. Too many people are not speaking to me, not returning phone calls, don't answer e-mails - and won't tell me why. I have little time or energy left for anything except my kids - they're full-time jobs themselves.

These days I spend fighting battle after battle for my kids, and trying to carve out a few minutes here and there for myself, trying to recharge my batteries. I've been living on reserve energy for a long time, and lately I've been on "Empty", running on fumes.  At this time, self-care has become paramount for me, and I've limited my circle to those who support me in that - including limiting my circle of contact to those who don't yell at me. Which means not speaking to most of my family - and e-mailing far-off friends.
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