<![CDATA[Fill your paper with breathings of your heart.]]> http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm Freewebs <![CDATA[Idle Thoughts on A Hoplessley Cliched Novel by Lil Ol' Me]]> http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm?blogentryid=2997084  I am at such a dead end with my hopeful and amateruish novel.  (I don't even have a title yet...but then again, titles usually come to me at the end anyway.)  I feel like it's 132 pages of pure idiocy, me being the critical person that I am.  I don't know.  I just find myself comparing it to other novels and I feel that the whole plot is just a cliche and that it is moving along much too slow.  It's strange--the entire beginning (page one thru current page) seems like tons of happenings all jumbled together without explanation--I just want to get in some action!--but I feel that the readers (if there are any) need to know what I'm writing about.  I have gotten to know most of the characters well--Mae is a cynical, sarcastic, yet somehow charming 14 or 15 year old (who is kind of modled after me.  Whenever I try to put myself into a character, I always seem to fall into her personality.)  Jaimy is a rich mama's boy who (15 or 16) who has yet to expierince life for what it is, Raine has a secret (mwahaha) and Weston (my personal favorite) is a flamboyant soul who loves fun, swordfighting, and whiskey.  And Mae (his sister.  In a brother-sister way, of course.)  Is that too many people for a group of traveling main characters?  There is also another woman (I have way too many girls in this story, I think), Akilia, but I almost just want to kill her.  She used to be the entire structure of the story, but I recently relieved her of her power and laid it on the shoulders of a conniving sylve (sort of faerie-elf-thing) named...um...Arelia, maybe.  (Still haven't decided on a name.)  I wanted to name her Aria, (ah-REE-ah) but I sadly discovered that in Eragon, there is a character (an elf) who has basically the same name (Arya.  Which looks better, too.)  I am mad about that--every time I come up with a good idea, it is always hindered by realizing that someone else has already thought of it.  Ugh. 

If anyone could come up with titles about a made-up land (sort of a rennaisance time period) with faeries, an tyrant ruler (I know, cliche, but what can I do?) and a love story twixt the plot, could you please tell me (in a comment or something.)  Even if it is irrevelent, it might inspire me to do something better. 

*Sigh*--now back to try to progress onto page 133...

]]> http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm?blogentryid=2997084#topBox http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm?blogentryid=2997084 Fri, 22 Feb 2008 19:23:00 -0100 <![CDATA[My stupidly impulsive self gets me into extremely satisfying trouble once again...]]> http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm?blogentryid=2218994    In our school, when we reach the top of the grade, it is a tradition to visit the teachers we had in sixth grade, while they're teaching their class.

    So, me not being one to break a tradition, I go and visit my social studies teacher.  And, being me, I am one to stand out in a crowd (good way or bad way, I really don't care much) and I'm talking in a sort of Olde World way, scattering my speech with witty quotes that apply to the situation as I always talk.  I really don't care, because I hate talking all like, "OMG this is so retarded!  Why the he** is the f****** teacher being like this???!!!" which is one of the preferred dialogue patterns of my school.  So I merely offset it by talking all "funny" as some call it, using rather large words as I mostly do, talking with a twinge of clever smile as I always do.  The poor dear "OMG LIKE THIS IS SOOOOO CA-UTE!" sixth graders have a new nickname for me: "Weirdo..."  And which is good.  Because I, even though I talk in that manner, was playacting.  I meant to be "weird".  So I apparantly did a good job.  Yay.

     I hate it when people try to be clones of all the popular, blonde, peppy and completely dumb girls who "rule the school."  It's retarded.  (Okay, I do talk in the perferred dialouge sometimes.  When I am feeling passionate about something.)  I am not lowering myself to fit in with people I don't even like.  So there.

]]> http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm?blogentryid=2218994#topBox http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm?blogentryid=2218994 Thu, 20 Sep 2007 15:45:00 -0100 <![CDATA[AUGH!!!!!!!!!!]]> http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm?blogentryid=2138136 I'm losing it.  I can't write anymore.  It's not writers block, either--I just lost my ability to write.  The words in Part II of the fanfiction, when I wrote it...they were just so...so forced.  I'm inconsoleably depressed...writing is the part of my life which makes it enjoyable...I can't give up, even though that's something I usually do.

All my thoughts are so...so empty.  I can't seem to just automatically pull the right word from my mind anymore, it's just so hard!  Augh!  Even when I worked on Seopia today, I couldn't get the words flowing, I couldn't reach into my thoughts and extract a story.  I couldn't make the characters alive, they died...what is wrong with meeee???????!!!!!!!

]]> http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm?blogentryid=2138136#topBox http://www.freewebs.com/writersworld93/idlelittlethoughts.htm?blogentryid=2138136 Mon, 03 Sep 2007 17:45:00 -0100